Black Saturday

(The following entry was written last April 11, 2009, 10:15AM.)


It’s been a month after one of the darkest moments of my life. At that time, my colleagues and I were in a hospital where we brought the victim of an accident. I was so gripped with panic that I didn’t even know it actually showed to my face. I felt the heavy burden in my heart, and the only two things I knew to lighten this up are to pray... and to cry. While staying in the hospital, I waited for that perfect time for me to vent my feelings out. I could not forget what happened. Yes, how could I forget? I was seated behind the driver and I saw the impact of the vehicle and the victim. That incident flashed back on my mind on our way to the staff house that evening, and I suddenly broke down into tears minutes after I set foot in the house.

This reminded me of the hymn “His Eye Is on the Sparrow.” At that instant, I thought God taught me something. Truly, these events do happen in our lives. It taught me to never lose hope and to have faith in this trial, despite of all that panic. I am so thankful that I could now move on. I am also grateful that this did not affect my work. I could still travel to and from Batangas without any fear. Somehow, my work became an instrument for me to divert my attention from that unhappy hour. This morning, I decided to delete all text messages related to the accident, aside from text messages that remained in my inbox for quite a long time. I think this is also a way for me to further get going.

I remembered that blog entry when I expected that I would face lots of bumps on the road of my life. Truly, that was a challenge. With that, I am getting more excited in following that road.

It's summer time once again.

These pictures were taken during the last week of our rotation for this academic year in San Juan, Batangas.